Leigha's Little Library

I got more texts today for Meagan, a girl I was told used to own my phone number but has passed away. The first text today was from B Vo Vision, wishing Meagan a happy birthday. She would be 34 (my age) today. She died from sudden cardiac arrest on May 8th, 2018. I don't know if this is some kind of cosmic sign. I need new glasses, my health is declining and I need to work on living again, and we are very close in age. The second text today was from a friend of hers of 15 years who also texted to say happy birthday and that they loved and missed her so much.

Meagan, I hear you. Happy birthday. I hope you are at peace.

**The first text I ever got for Meagan was on Dec 3rd was from another friend. They told me what happened to Meagan. I never wrote them back, because I thought it was a scam. Such is the world we live in. Friend of Meagan, I am very sorry for your loss and I am very sorry that I did not message you back. I was told that it might be better not to and warned that the probability of your message being a scam was really high. B Vo Vision contacting me proved otherwise, which prompted me to investigate my phone number.

I looked up my phone number and it says it is owned by a Meagan W. I got a late payment text from Verizon ages ago that I thought was a scam. Meagan's carrier was Verizon according to White Pages. I'm getting many, many long distance phone calls every day from bill collectors or businesses. Nobody should have this number. It all makes sense now.**

The reason I posted this here is because Meagan, even after death seems to be trying to motivate me to get up and do something. I have chronic pain, I am obese, can't hardly walk or stand because of spine problems, have depression and social anxiety. I've been doing nothing for a very long time and gaining more weight because of it. My weight isn't because I eat too much or that I am lazy. Chronic pain, depression and invisible illnesses don't help, but they make it hard to move, in turn making it hard to... oh, well, I can't even explain what I am trying to say. It is a vicious cycle; I'll just say that.

Even if I can only do a little, Meagan, you're motivating me to at least try. You've got to start from somewhere, right? Thank you, Meagan.

I know she is gone, but let's remember her today. Please do what Meagan's friend says. Make an effort to let those you love know because it can slip away in an instant. I hope Meagan can motivate you to do something you need to do. <3