*Spoiler warning, just in case, but I don't think it really should count as a spoiler*
Trigger Warning: Rape & Torture
Part of me does not want to post this, but this book effected me so much, I just have to post this. I heard about this book a couple days ago and saw how expensive it was, so naturally I was curious. They say curiosity kills the cat, which that saying makes more sense now. I'm not dead of course, but I felt a little broken after reading this. This book is out of print, so I had to do some digging, because I was not going to pay over $100 for it. Someone let me read their PDF file.
Please note, I do not support the taking/stealing of books. I should not have read the PDF file. I do not actually have copies of this PDF on my person, so please don't ask.
Here is my review:
What did I just read... what did I read? I'm shaking, sad, angry, furious, crying my eyes out.
How do you rate a book like this? I will say that I did not "enjoy" it. It wasn't a "good" story. It was engrossing, and I couldn't stop reading it. It was like that saying about not being able to look away from a train wreck or some other tragedy. (I don't even know what I'm saying.) I'm really mad.
The writing style wasn't that great. It felt really choppy. There was a lot of stuff that felt really unnecessary. The ending is what brought on the uncontrollable shaking and anger. (Not that the whole thing isn't anger inducing) I can't even say why without spoiling, but I have a feeling most people go into the story knowing it will not end well.
I think the book broke me. I can't imagine kids being that way, and why one of them wouldn't just tell a grown up, even the "Picker" that was camping out near their home. In this book, the Pickers are men who are lower class and do work for other people, at least is how I gathered it. At least one of them didn't want to go through with it, but since it was "a game" they had to go through with it. That makes me so upset. They were all old enough to know better. Sure some of them might truly be psychotic, but it just doesn't make sense.
Also the cops are so.... phew, calm down... (I'm getting angry again) Adults just don't give kids enough credit and I think somehow, someway, they should have realized something fishy was going on with the kids.
I don't know what else to say.
*The only reason I gave it a 3 star is because I can not deny the fact that I was completely engrossed in the book, as horrible as the content was.
*Would I read it again: Big HECK no, with a major but... as a book reviewer/blogger and Booktuber, I might allow myself the agony of reading it again if I had a physical copy (that I found for a "normal" price and not $100 and we know how unlikely it is to find a copy) The only reason I *might* read again, is to let you know if the formatting issues I had, the choppiness was down to the fact I read it as a PDF or if those issues were in the print copy.
*It has been days since I read and reviewed this and I still feel uncomfortable that I gave it a 3 star, because 3 stars for me usually means I liked a book, but just not enough to be a favorite or a book that I loved (which is what I think about 4 and 5 star reads.)
Like I said, I did not like this book, but it did entertain me (not even in a good way, if that makes sense) and it was engrossing, so 3 stars it is.