Leigha's Little Library

I am a small time Booktuber on Youtube and book reviewer on here and Goodreads! I blog mostly book content, but other content may slip in every now and again. What you might find here or on Youtube: books, poetry, life in general, hobbies, mental health awareness...etc. I'm a doll and toy collector, so that is bound to show up one day.

 

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Ordinary Souls by J. S. Bailey

Ordinary Souls - J.S. Bailey

*I've come to a story that has suicide, but not in great detail, but it is there, for anyone uncomfortable with the subject.*

The Mirror: 5/5
I really enjoyed this short story. It is about a mirror that shows you things it shouldn't show you. (Yeah that doesn't sound confusing at all, does it? I promise the story itself makes much more sense than I do!) I couldn't help feeling some Harry Potter "Mirror of Erised" vibes while reading this because the moral of the story. Great short story and I liked the writing style. Set in the UK. I appreciate the research J.S did to make it sound authentic. (Maybe that helped with giving me the Harry Potter vibes lol) The ending was perfect and left me wishing this story was a longer one! For sure a spooky concept!

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The Ghost of Memory: 3.5/5
I felt like it needed to be longer. I did like it, but everything happened so fast. I know it is a short story, but I can't help desiring more. I however really enjoy the writing style. There are a couple parts mentioning spiders, so arachniphobia warning. I just felt like mentioning I got another weird vibe while reading this, totally unrelated to the book and J.S Bailey, but funny at any rate. A character is being referred to as "Cheese Man" and for some reason, I can only think of the Cheese Man on Buffy The Vampire Slayer.

To Willow: “I've made a little space for the cheese slices.”

To Xander: “These… will not protect you.”

To Giles: “I wear the cheese. It does not wear me.”

To Buffy: (silently shakes the cheese slices, then retreats)

I'm sorry.

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Vapers: 3/5
I don't have much to say about this one other than it was confusing. I did like it and I enjoy the writing style. It was more science fiction than supernatural; maybe that is the cause of my confusion because I don't read much sci-fi.

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Maria - 1/5 - This one isn't for me. It has a creepy vibe, but it doesn't feel like a complete story whether it was a short story or not.

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Agoraphobia - 4/5 - This story hits too close to home. It was written in the second person, so that made it even more personal as if I were the main character. Thankfully, it gives a hopeful message."

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The Author, The Lonely Walker and The Class - 4/5 - This one is interesting. It is a story within a story… within a story. I’m not going to say it isn’t confusing at first. I'm not usually a fan of this, but I think it was handled well here. This kind of story (especially considering it is so short) is a hit and miss for a lot of people, but I liked it. I feel like I could also relate to “the author” who talks about what I assume is social anxiety and having meltdowns in public. I don't want to spoil anything, but I relate to "the author" and "the lonely walker" in other ways, too. Really solid writing style.

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The Outing - 3/5 - This one seemed like it would be a sweet story about an average looking man (he pretty much describes himself as such) and a younger woman he thinks is out of his league getting together and getting married. It is a much darker story than that. I can’t say much without spoiling anything, though. I liked the story, but I wanted more or a little more “oomph.”

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Imaginary Friend - 4/5 - This story is a prequel to “Rage’s Echo” a novel by J.S. Bailey I haven’t read. Knowing nothing about Rage’s Echo, I really enjoyed this story. It was sad but sweet at the same time.

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Weary Traveler - 4/5- I really liked this one. It was spooky. I like how you are not sure what is real and what might be supernatural.

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Journal Entry From The End Of The Universe - 5/5- This one was told in journal entries. I really liked the format. This story makes you think about what matters and to be careful of what you wish for. The thing you wish for might not be what it is cracked up to be.

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And Lead Us Not - 2.5/5 - Disturbing. I wish there were more details and that it was longer. I know it is a short story, but something was lacking. Well written, but the story wasn't my cup of tea. A great, unexpected way to end it, though.

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White Lightning - 3/5 - Writing style on point. I like how it seems all the stories are about something different and not 16 stories of ghost hauntings or something. Nothing supernatural about this one that I could tell, but I guess that depends on how you interpret the story.

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And There We Will Be - 5/5 - This is a really sad story. It deals with some disturbing themes, such as child abuse, but as sad as the story is, there is a feeling of hope, too.

 

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Rochelle’s Pizza Run - -/- I decided not to read this as it is a short story sequel to another one of J. S Bailey’s books “The Story Beyond The Portal” and as that book sounds like something I would like, I want to read it first!

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Solitude - 4/5 - This is a prequel to “Servant, The Chronicles of Servitude, #1” by J. S. Bailey. I really liked it and look forward to reading the series. I did however not care for the line about suicide. Sometimes I just think people do not realize how lines like that can come across to other people, no matter if it fits the character who said it. Suicide is not something you should ever joke about. “If [ ] heard that they would commit suicide.”

The story was well written and suspenseful and leads into a promising series.

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Diamonds in the Sky - 5/5 - This was a great story. Science fiction. It was sad, but also bitter-sweet. I loved it.

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Nov 18, 2017
*I met J.S Bailey today when she did an impromptu book signing at my local Half Priced Bookstore. She was really nice. Gave me two free bookmarks and I said I would buy one of her books online as we were carrying little cash. But before we left the store, my husband was nice enough to let me get this one! I really enjoyed how J.S. Bailey described some of the short stories in this collection. Thanks for signing my book!*

 

Reading progress update: I've read 292 out of 292 pages.

Ordinary Souls - J.S. Bailey

Just finished - And There We Will Be -  This is a really sad story. It deals with some disturbing themes, such as child abuse, but as sad as the story is, there is a feeling of hope, too.

 

Rochelle’s Pizza Run - I decided not to read this as it is a short story sequel to another one of J. S Bailey’s books “The Story Beyond The Portal” and as that book sounds like something I would like, I want to read it first!

 

Solitude - This is a prequel to “Servant, The Chronicles of Servitude, #1” by J. S. Bailey. I really liked it and look forward to reading the series. I did however not care for the line about suicide. Sometimes I just think people do not realize how lines like that can come across to other people, no matter if it fits the character who said it. Suicide is not something you should ever joke about. “If [ ] heard that they would commit suicide.”

The story was well written and suspenseful and leads into a promising series.

 

Diamonds in the Sky - This was a great story. Science fiction. It was sad, but also bitter-sweet. I loved it.

 

16 stories, 15 finished. [1 skipped]

 

The Mirror - 5/5

The Ghost of Memory - 3.5/5

Vapers - 3/5

Maria - 1/5

Agoraphobia - 4/5

The Author, The Lonely Walker and The Class - 4/5

The Outing - 3/5

Imaginary Friend - 4/5

Weary Traveler - 4/5

Journal Entry From The End Of The Universe - 5/5

And Lead Us Not - 2.5/5

White Lightning - 3/5

And There We Will Be 5/5

Rochelle’s Pizza Run -/-

Solitude - 4/5

Diamonds in the Sky - 5/5

Reading progress update: I've read 211 out of 292 pages.

Ordinary Souls - J.S. Bailey

Just finished - White Lightning -  Writing style on point. I like how it seems all the stories are about something different and not 16 stories of ghost hauntings or something. Nothing supernatural about this one that I could tell, but I guess that depends on how you interpret the story.

 

16 stories, 12 finished.

 

The Mirror - 5/5

The Ghost of Memory - 3.5/5

Vapers - 3/5

Maria - 1/5

Agoraphobia - 4/5

The Author, The Lonely Walker and The Class - 4/5

The Outing - 3/5

Imaginary Friend - 4/5

Weary Traveler - 4/5

Journal Entry From The End Of The Universe - 5/5

And Lead Us Not - 2.5/5

White Lightning - 3/5

Slump... or not?

Is it really a slump when you stop reading because you want to focus on something else for a while? I mean, I already read over 50 books this year and I think that is pretty good for someone who has trouble focusing.

 

(I have years of 200+ books, but I don't want that kind of pressure anymore. Reading = fun, not a job or chore! More power to people who can read that much all the time, but I can't keep that up year after year!)

 

Right now, I am technically in the middle of 3 books (4 if you count the one I haven't recorded online. Oops. Does it count if I haven't recorded it online...so is the era we live in! :/ )

 

Paperbacks From Hell:

(I want to savor it!)

 

 

Paperback Crush:

(Same)

 

 

Ordinary Souls:

(Short story collection, so I can take my time if I want to.)

 

33217308

 

The Hobbit:

(Shifty eyes... for some reason my brain thought it was a good idea to try and read The Hobbit and LOTR again. Curse my brain!!)

 

15329

 

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Anyways, hi. I haven't updated in a while  because I've not been reading much. How is everyone doing?

Reading progress update: I've read 192 out of 292 pages.

Ordinary Souls - J.S. Bailey

It has been a while since I've read this book. In my defense, there are some books you can take your time with, like short story collections.

 

Just finished - And Lead Us Not -  Disturbing. I wish there were more details and that it were longer. I know it is a short story, but something was lacking. Well written, but the story wasn't my cup of tea. Great, unexpected way to end it, though.

 

16 stories, 11 finished.

 

The Mirror - 5/5

The Ghost of Memory - 3.5/5

Vapers - 3/5

Maria - 1/5

Agoraphobia - 4/5

The Author, The Lonely Walker and The Class - 4/5

The Outing - 3/5

Imaginary Friend - 4/5

Weary Traveler - 4/5

Journal Entry From The End Of The Universe - 5/5

And Lead Us Not - 2.5/5

Sex Education by Jenny Davis

Sex Education - Jenny Davis

Trigger warning: A Small part where they discuss abortion & rape.

 

Please don't let the title put you off!

 

Amazing story. However, just a little warning, this book broke my heart. I had a vague sense of reading this before and realized I must have picked it up somewhere as a teen, so this is one of the books I read and forgot about ages ago. (I mean... that title lol)

Sex was a lot more taboo when I was kid/teen, so I probably read it and hid it, mistakingly thinking I was doing something "naughty" This book talks about sex in detail, not graphic though, but if you are uncomfortable about saying the proper terms for sex, human body parts...etc...well... this book might not be for you. Though I think you should still give it a chance! They also talk about abortion & rape.

Considering it is about sex education (and so much more) the book doesn't feel that outdated. This should be read by all ages, and of course for kids and teens also just learning about their bodies. It isn't a how-to guide by any means, but there is stuff in here that are important for all people to know/remember. Do we hide stuff about sex from our children and never let them be educated or do we let them learn about it and know how to handle themselves if/when they decide to have sex?

 

This book made me ugly cry, in fact, I am trying to hold it together while writing this.

It was Mrs. Packletide's pleasure and intention that she should shoot a tiger. Not that the lust to kill had suddenly descended on her, or that she felt that she would leave India safer and more wholesome than she had found it, with one fraction less of wild beast per million of inhabitants.

Humor - Horror - and the Supernatural by Saki

 

The short story: Mrs. Packletide's Tiger

 

This is how the story started and I'm like *eyes shut, take a deep breath, put the book down* "Nope." *Pick it back up, debate if I should finish the story, but instead post this quote here.*

 

The book was published in 1968, but today there are still people like Mrs. Packletide. Do they really think killing a wild animal leaves the place more wholesome? How does that make sense? Was wholesome used in a different way in the 60s? I thought tigers were sacred in India?

 

I read a little more and it turns out she wants to do this out of hatred and jealously of another woman and she wants to flaunt a tiger rug and give that woman a tiger claw broach for her birthday.

 

And I did finish this story and based on how it ends, this one is supposed to be humor. I don't get what is funny about a dead tiger.

 

Source: http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/71203.Humor_Horror_and_the_Supernatural

The Goodreads Choice Awards

I love to read, but The Goodreads Choice Awards makes me realize that I don't read a lot of current books.

 

I tend to read a lot of older books, and I love to reread books. I was able to vote for two categories.

 

There were a few authors I liked and books I had on my TBR and while I was tempted to vote for those based on my like of the author/thinking I would love the book, I refrained. That would not be fair!

 

Do you think people voted for books they haven't read? What do you think about voting/rating a book you haven't read?

 

Here are the categories. I will put a photo for the ones I voted on, but for the ones I did not, I am still going to choose one book to showcase.

 

Best Fiction:

No votes... although I did read the first few chapters of An American Marriage and liked it. I got side tracked and never finished it

 

An American Marriage by Tayari Jones
Mystery & Thriller:

No votes...none of the books are even on my TBR

 

The Outsider by Stephen King

 

Historical Fiction:

Again...no votes. I don't often reach for this catergory

 

The Great Alone by Kristin Hannah

 

Fantasy:

Nothing... I used to read this category all the time, but haven't done much as of late. There are a few I'm curious about

 

Spinning Silver by Naomi Novik

 

Best of the Best: [This category is a grouping of winners from past years]

I voted for The Martian. I also read Catching Fire and The Fault in Our Stars" though I did not read any of these this year

 

The Martian by Andy Weir

 

Romance:

Eh... meh, nothing. I don't reach for romance that much. There are a couple I might be interested in, nothing actually on my TBR

 

The Kiss Quotient by Helen Hoang

 

Science Fiction:

Nope

 

Head On by John Scalzi

 

Horror:

No, nothing. I really do like horror, but I need to follow through more on actually reading it

 

We Sold Our Souls by Grady Hendrix

 

Humor:

Nothing and I could sure use some humor in my life!

 

This Will Only Hurt a Little by Busy Philipps

 

Nonfiction:

No, but I want to read more nonfiction

 

Not That Bad by Roxane Gay

 

Memoir & Autobiography:

You guessed it... no

 

In Pieces by Sally Field

 

History & Biography:

No, however, I want to read the book about Robin Williams and the book about Mr. Rogers. (I almost cheated and voted for one of them, because I love those guys and the were a big part of my childhood.)

 

The Good Neighbor by Maxwell KingRobin by Dave Itzkoff

 

Science & Technology:

No

 

Spying on Whales by Nick Pyenson

 

Food & Cookbooks:

No cookbooks for me

 

Baking All Year Round by Rosanna Pansino

 

Graphic Novels & Comics:

I voted for Hearding Cats (a 4/5 star rated book). Several more in this category is on my TBR

 

Herding Cats by Sarah Andersen

 

Poetry:

I like poetry, but haven't read anything on the list, so nope

 

The Poet X by Elizabeth Acevedo

 

Debut Author:

Congrats debut authors... I just suck keeping up with the times, so nothing for this catergory. Several are on my TBR though

 

An Absolutely Remarkable Thing by Hank Green

 

Young Adult Fiction:

Nothing here, either

 

Sadie by Courtney Summers

 

Young Adult Fantasy & Science Fiction:

Or here, but some are on my TBR

 

Children of Blood and Bone by Tomi Adeyemi

 

Middle Grade & Children's:

I failed one of my favorite catergories. Nothing. Children books are so comforting, reminds me of a better time

 

Aru Shah and the End of Time by Roshani Chokshi

Picture Books:

Nothing here and I do read picture books

 

A Day in the Life of Marlon Bundo by Jill Twiss

 

What books on the Choice Awards have you read and what books did you vote for? Please recommend any books from the Choice Awards that you loved and think I might like!

 

Click here for The Goodreads Choice Awards

 

And remember, it doesn't matter what you read, how much you read, or even if you take a long time off, you are still a reader!

 

 

Source: http://www.goodreads.com/choiceawards/best-books-2018

Have you heard of Stepp Cemetery?

 

There is a place in my town called “Stepp Cemetery” and local legends talks of a sad, lonely ghost of a Woman in Black who wanders the graveyard. There are many different versions of why this ghost is there, but in all versions she remains behind, mourning over a lost family member. Some say she sits on an old tree stump, protecting the graves of loved ones and if you listen you can hear her cry. Growing up we always heard about the stories, so of course, it was common for people to go ghost hunting and exploring. A lot of dark stuff is rumored to take place there as well.

 

It was after Halloween, around 2am of the next morning. I was a teenager. My family and some of my neighbors randomly decided to load up and go to the graveyard. We had the idea that we would go and find the Woman in Black, but what we found proves that the living are far more scarier than the dead.

 

Stepp Cemetery felt eerie, but that was to be expected. The wind was howling and you could imagine the sounds of a crying female and dark, fleeting shadows were always just around the corner. It is safe to say that we thoroughly spooked ourselves. I don't know if anything ghostly we saw or heard was real or imagined, but at the time it all felt real.

 

Some of us took the experience seriously, but most of us were just being silly and goofing off, though I don't think in an overly disrespectful manner. Just kids and kids at heart being kids, I guess.

 

After exploring for a while, we came across a grave of what looked like a young child. It had an Angel headstone. There was a melted candle on top of it. Our first thoughts went to devil worshiping; it just felt wrong. The sound of the wind suddenly seemed louder, the cries that may or may not have been the ghost, sounded more desperate. We were more unsure and nobody was joking around anymore.

 

 

That frightened us enough that the adults decided we should probably head back to the cars. As we were heading back, we noticed two people far in the distance. They also felt so-so wrong. Nobody spoke. We all felt this. One by one we got behind a huge tree, hiding from view. Luckily, the men hadn’t noticed us. As the men came near us, we moved around the tree to stay out of view. It would have been comical, like something from an old cartoon had it not been so scary.

 

The men got to the gravestone with the melted candle. One bent down and started digging. “Where is it?” He sounded gruff and furious. There was a glint at his side. He was armed.

 

A fight or flight moment happened and without speaking again, we all bolted and ran back for our cars. The men saw and started to chase us. The wind seemed to be chanting go, go, go!

 

“Give it back!” Whatever the men were looking for, they thought we took it. Was the burning candle a marker for something? What could these men possibly want to find in this old forgotten cemetery? What was so important that they would come armed? Was it drug related or something darker?

 

Somehow we made it to the cars. It was now around 3am, I noticed as we pulled out.

 

As if the men weren't bad enough, as we left a van full of men in white masks and black robes pulled into the graveyard. They stared at us and it felt like they were burning our image into their memory. I will never forget the fear I felt and I am sure everyone else felt the same terror. A couple more minutes and we would have been caught by whoever these men in masks were.

 

 

Were they devil worshipers? Were they just college kids doing a fraternity initiation? We will never know, but they felt bad.

 

As for the Woman in Black? I think she is real and a protecting spirit. We have family buried at Stepp Cemetery, so was she protecting us as well and whenever we did things unspoken as a whole, I wonder if it was because of her influence.

.

 

 

The moral of this story is be careful when you go to a place where you only expect the dead. The living are far worse

 

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Phobia

I have a phobia, but I won't say what, because I am afraid someone will subconsciously post about it. I'm sure I'm safe in this space from anyone doing it on purpose, though!
 
Of course, the Internet is always listening and might post an ad related to it. Anyways, so I was laying down with my husband and we were chatting (we take forever saying saying goodnight) and out of nowhere my phone says really loudly,
 
"Okay, I will put that URL in."
 
That alone is a spooky thing to hear.
 
 
So I go to pick my phone up. It is unlocked (It should be locked) and the Wikipedia page for my phobia is pulled up, with a large picture of the thing that gives me anxiety/makes me sick/scares me. Needless to say, I tossed my phone at my husband, cried and told him to get rid of it. He did, but the next time I went on the Internet, it was still there! UGH! I was not having it and told him I meant for him to delete it, not just minimize the app.
 
It made me cry like a baby! I don't know how to explan why. That's a phobia for you.
 
 
My husband thought it was so funny that my phone just up and did something so weird and random. I told him I thought it was supernatural and a spirit was messing with me because there is no way that your phone will pull up a page, unlock your phone and the page be something that you can't stand/are afraid of. I mean what is the chance? He apologized; I guess it is a phobia he can't understand. He learned his lesson for laughing at me...;)
 
 
Truthfully, the lesson he learned is how serious a phobia can be. He felt so bad because he hadn't realized at first how upset the situation made me.
 
I was seriously spooked. I even asked the "spirit" to please not do that again.
 
 
 Do you think they will listen?

You're cool. You do you and I will do me...

A lot of blogs might not be book related, just life isn't all books. I know, shocking!
 
I can't walk or stand for very long, chronic pain bites! I can't fully participate at events or go "adventuring" I can't just up and go somewhere, unless I know for sure they will have places I can sit and rest. This really mentally wears you down. I feel like a child and that everyone has to take care of me and do things for me, but on the other hand, I feel like a really old person, having to use a scooter or a cane (which the cane isn't helping as much, so I might have to "upgrade" to a walker thingamabob) I am limited. I feel limited. It has really isolated me; I don't get out. I fall deeper into depression and bad habits, because depression and chronic pain sucks and some days...I wanna give up.
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"You're fat, that is why you're in pain, that is why after standing and walking, your spine compresses and you have to sit down or fall down..." Oh SHUT UP! I am hardly a cursing person, but I want to shove a big F-YOU down the throat of anyone who says or thinks this about someone with depression or chronic pain. Including myself! We can be our own worst enemy.
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"You don't have a job. You're lazy!" Hah! That shows what you know. My job is being alive. If you think about it, I'm pretty good at it. I've got a 100% attendance record!
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"You play with crystals, meditate, believe in the unbelievable (supernatural, fairies, witchcraft (oh la la), and the list goes on) you must be a devil worshiper!" Believe what you want, but if liking crystals, mediating and the like mean I love the devil, then by all means, awesome... (It doesn't mean that, but still...) These practices a lot of people toss their nose up to actually HELP me when I open my mind to them and believe. Nothing is a cure all, but I've been managing my "glitches" and feeling mentally better than usual ever since I started to believe in the healing properties of crystals, meditation and casting a spell. (It isn't like Harry Potter, for goodness sakes. It is the power of belief/of manifestation, like making a wish before blowing out a birthday candle.)
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"You're cool. You do you and I will do me. I'll still love you even if we have different beliefs." Aww, thanks. That is what we should be saying to each other. <3
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I love you all. Blessed Be!
 
 
 
 

Think before you speak haha

I don't have anywhere to share this story, so I am going to share it here.

 

My mom, who is 56 years old and not good with technology at all is quite proud of herself that she can play Roblox by herself with my 10-year-old niece, S. Mom, S, and her parents (my sister & her husband) and my other 3-year-old niece were at the park.

 

S was rocking on a horse that was too small for her. Another girl of about 9 or 10 came up to S and said, "aren't you too big for that?" She wasn't being mean, but more bossy, like "I know everything." The girl said, "try that one, it is bigger."

 

So S went to the other toy (which had two seats) and the girl said, "Isn't that so great, now you and she can do it together," indicating the 3-year-old.

 

My mom getting annoyed by her bossy tone (I guess) out of nowhere said, "Do you play Robox!?" I think she was trying to get the girl to leave S alone because she was probably uncomfortable.

 

The girl said, "Yes! I love Roblox!"

 

My mom... my clueless, harmless mother said, "Have you played "Grab a child?" and immediately mom's eyes went wide and my sister started to crack up. Mom was quick to change the subject, realizing how bad that could sound to anyone listening in. It went right over the little girl's head though.

 

Oh gee, only my mother...

 

What is something you've said that you regretted as soon as you said them?

First Date by R.L Stine

First Date - R.L. Stine

Here we are again with body shaming, and shaming curly hair again as well (come on, what is so wrong with curly hair R.L Stine!?)

 

R.L Stine is huge with rape culture in his teen books. Yikes. I did not notice this when I read them as a preteen/teenager. It happens three times in this book. With the boys in the car, two guys in Chelsea's workplace and that scene with a drunk Sparks. (more details below) These are terrifying real-world situation that no person wants to be in. There is also an instance where they call another girl a tramp, so we've got slut shaming, too.

 


Body shaming:

The mom going "you're attractive... if you lost a bit of weight...and put on lipstick"

Um NO... you can call a person pretty, regardless of their body weight. That is a good way to mess your kid up. I can relate to having someone in the family always bringing up weight. It is really painful when the shaming comes from the last people who should ever shame you and can leave lasting damage.

I can also relate to having someone always trying to get me to put on makeup. "Oh hey, if you just put on a little makeup." or "Here, let me show you how to fix your hair." No, mom, you might mean well, but I'm fine the way I am, thanks. I'm an adult now, so I think I can figure out how I want to do my hair or if I want to wear makeup or not. (Spoiler, I don't 99% of the time!)

 

Don't do this. If you try to force someone to change their looks (by adding makeup..etc) when they don't want to, you are basically telling them they are not good enough the way they are.

Throughout the book, her weight and looks are mentioned. There is also a scene where she compares her lunch (a normal size lunch!) to Nina's lunch of yogurt and an apple, saying "Nina is going to think I'msoooo fat, but if I only eat what she has, I will be starving!"

(show spoiler)


Rape culture:

I'm not writing this word for word... but you get it.

Boy: How about a date?
Other boy: Plenty of room in here.
*boys laugh and make kissing sounds*
Boy: We're great. We're really great.
Other boy: Bet you're great, too.
Chelsea: Leave me alone!
Boy: Aww, that's not friendly?
Other boy: Don't you want to be friendly?
Chelsea: I'm warning you!
Boy: Aww, she's getting steamed
Other boy: That's not friendly!

This is rape culture. You know what these boys are doing and what they wanted to do to Chelsea, whether they would go through with anything or not is beside the point. It is disgusting that anyone would act like this.

Also, two guys do about the same thing to her when she is alone in her workplace.

Happens again later on when Sparks tells her to "be friendly" while he's basically chasing her around her workplace, saying and doing creepy things. He is also drunk.

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Slut shaming:

Nina (The main character's oh-so-skinny friend) believes her boyfriend is going to leave her, because she sees him talking to another girl named Suki. Oh, the horrors! You know, he could have been asking help with homework, or Suki could be his friend, but no, jump straight to "he's cheating"

Nina says "Suki is such a huge tramp!" (I read another R.L Stine book that has Suki mentioned. She is kind of a stereotypical "hard rock bad girl" or maybe Goth (I can't remember) and acts/dresses differently and apparently has a reputation for sleeping around but it only feels this is so because of how Suki is stereotyped. In the other book, she is also treated the same way.)

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I still love these books; yeah, I have a blind spot for them. I know they are outdated and problematic by today's standards. I'm reading them through nostalgia-colored glasses.

 

Afterthought: I just want to point out that the main character is mentioned as being "chubby" and the bad guy says she is "dark and chubby. Not real pretty but she's okay." The book talks about "fixing" her up by straightening her hair, wearing makeup and losing a few pounds.

 

These 80s & 90s teen books probably made a lot of people feel bad. Or if you were like me, you would just overlook the problematic stuff; it just went right over my head.

First came Jaws by Peter Benchley, a novel about a stressed-out great white shark suffering from portion control issues.

Paperbacks From Hell by Grady Hendrix

 

 

Buffy The Vampire Slayer (picture book)

Buffy the Vampire Slayer - Jim Smith

This was the cutest picture book. It is the perfect way to introduce a child into the world of Buffy and when they are older force them to watch all the episodes. I loved looking for the little details that would make any Buffy fan smile in delight, or in my case grin like a dork and make a giggle sound. You see familiar faces of people Buffy goes up against in the show and her little pig stuffed animal, Mr. Gordo!

 

The illustrations by Kim Smith are so adorable. As this is meant for children the canon is changed; it is the cute, innocent version of Buffy. I loved it. I'm an adult who still loves picture books, children books, young adult, and adult books, too. (and that will never change!)

He's Gone

He passed away this morning at home. We are thankful we did not have to drag him to the vet to be put down. He hated the vet and since he couldn't move on his own, any forced movement would have been beyond painful. As far as I'm being told by my mom, his passing seemed peaceful.

 

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Thanks to everyone who offered me kind words and virtual hugs. This is a really wonderful community. I'm only a small fry here but those who do interact with me on here have been so nice.

 

[This is my last time seeing him, on Saturday. <3 Go sweet boy, run in puppy Heaven.]

Currently reading

Paperbacks from Hell: The Twisted History of '70s and '80s Horror Fiction by Grady Hendrix
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